Archive for December, 2007

I have been weighed down lately by things. I know I need to stop laying around and do something about those things. That’s easier to say than do tho. This was my first Christmas without her and it sucks. I haven’t been enjoying life or my kids. When I get like this all I do is sleep. Then after the house is quiet I stay up thinking. Dh gets annoyed with me for sleeping all the time but then tells me I shouldn’t have any reason to be depressed. So I keep all of this to myself which I know isn’t a good thing. I have learned that there’s a plan for me but this can’t be it. I have to be able to enjoy things.

I have been thinking alot about a letter I read on Helen’s blog, she wrote it to herself at 18. I don’t have a age to write about just my life.

Dear Brandy,

You were born to 2 young people who didn’t know what to do with you. At 3 you will be giving a better life, try to remember this later down the road. After you turn 5 and your mom calls don’t worry about pleasing her stay with your grandparents. When you are 8 don’t let their drinking bother you, it isn’t your fault.

That July when you are 10 and your mom calls and says it’s ok for you not to go see Papaw, know that it isn’t your fault he’s gone. He was so sick and it was his time to go. Also the man she’s now seeing will be in your life a long time, learn to trust him. He will do anything for you and your future kids.

7th grade will bring the guy you think loves only you, wrong! The next 3 years will be mostly hell, but you will come out stronger than you think is possible. During this time you will do lots of things you will not be proud of later but remember these things will help you be a better person.

During the 9th grade you will meet someone new and he will be good to you. Again you will do things you won’t be proud of. Again they will help you later in life. Just know he’s not the one for you and you will break his heart but it’s the plan. 

What would have been your 10th grade year you will meet another guy. He’s the one but you won’t believe that at first. Things will change so much over the next year. I am proud that you get your GED, you could have let that go too. You will find out who has your back during this time, it’s better this way. At 17 you will get married and everyone will question this but don’t listen, remember he’s the one. One of the best things to ever happen comes at 18, you will find out you are going to be a mommy. Of course you are scared but everything turns out OK, he’s the best baby. Don’t think twice about coming home from the Army, they will be the last months with Didie. Treasure those memories with him. The next few years will be a test for your marriage, stay with it tho it’s all worth it. At 23 you find out your having a girl. She will be very worth all the sickness and preterm labor. She will be why you were always told “you pay for your raising”.

Try to remember tomorrow’s not promised and when Mamaw needs you to just do it. She will be gone before you are really ready. She needs to know things will be OK before she will stop fighting. You also need to know they will be. 2006 and 2007 will be hard. You do what you have to when she’s concerned.  Just don’t beat yourself up about not being there June 10th. You have lots of battles coming your way but know you have the Lord with you so chin up.



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Santa has come and gone. He brought dd a broken toy so now her momma has to drive an hour away to exchange it. He also left momma with many boxes to get rid of and while burning them she got burned.  

Even after all of that we had a wonderful Christmas. The kids got way to much but love it all. Dd got lots of Hannah Montana and Bratz stuff. Ds got lots of camo stuff. He got the Nike’s he’s been eye balling forever.

We finally came up with a name for the new puppy. Dh brought home a 7 month old chocolate lab named Doc, that is sleeping in ds’s room. Why yes that makes 3 house dogs… one beagle, one mini wiener, and one HUGE lab.

Well I am trying to get things back in order around the house. Hope you all have/had a wonderful Christmas.

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Can you help?

We need some help with puppy names. Remember it’s a little girl and she will stay small. Thanks and stay tuned for the name.

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and it will be Christmas. The in-laws are doing Christmas this Sat. then my grandma’s Christmas Eve afternoon and my mom’s is Christmas Eve night. Christmas Day we stay home all day doing whatever the kids want. More likely putting stuff together lol.

The kids have their parties/movies Thursday and then they are out till the 7th. YEAH!!! I am looking forward to them being home.

Friday we are going to pick up our new puppy. We are stuck on names tho. The puppy is a girl, she is a mini dachshund with a brownish/reddish coat.

I picked up a book yesterday called “The Power of a Praying Parent” and I am really enjoying it and learning from it. I finally had to put it down. I am now off to bed.

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Wrapping paper or gift bags? Wrapping paper, kids love unwrapping gifts!

Real tree or artificial? Artificial

When do you put up the tree? the day after Thanksgiving

When do you take the tree down? sometime before New Years

Do you like eggnog? I haven’t tried it.

Favorite gift received? My Barbie Dream House

Do you have a nativity scene? Yes.

Hardest person to buy for? my son

Easiest person to buy for? my daughter

Worst Christmas gift you ever received? a typewriter, it wasn’t the worst gift but I thought it was something else.

Mail or email Christmas cards? Neither.

Favorite Christmas movie? Frosty the Snowman or A Christmas story.

When do you start shopping for Christmas? October.

Have you ever recycled a Christmas present? maybe

Favorite thing to eat at Christmas? pecan pie!!!

Clear lights or colored on the tree? colored

Favorite Christmas song? Rockin around the Christmas Tree by Brenda Lee

Travel at Christmas or stay home? Christmas day we stay home. Christmas Eve is my mom’s family and the day before that is the In laws.

Can you name all of Santa’s reindeer? Yes.

Angel on the tree top or a star? this year I don’t have anything up there.

Open the presents Christmas Eve or morning? Christmas morning.

Most annoying thing about this time of year? people who act like Scrooge.

What I love most about Christmas? watching my kids opening their gifts, making Santa’s cookies with the kids and the music!

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My son is grew up. Instead of a Christmas party the 4th, 5th and 6th grades go to a movie and then have lunch out somewhere. So this year they are going to see Alvin and the Chipmunks, something I would like to see too. So I am all excited about it thinking this is the last year and all, until said son informed me he was old enough to go without me. Hello when did that happen? Wasn’t it just last week I was still wiping his butt?

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This morning at church one of the men in my Sunday school class came by to tell me they missed us at the Christmas dinner last night, when my ds tells him I got pulled over yesterday! It was a good thing we where in church, or ds would be 6 feet under! Why do kids tell everything but die when we parents tell something about them?

So yes I got pulled over coming home from Sil’s house. I was speeding but the nice officer only gave me a warning. I am thankful I got pulled over though. Lol let me explain… I was so tried that I was nodding off behind the wheel. Being pulled over woke me up, so it was a blessing. Yes I know better than to drive when I am that tried but I just wanted to get home, so I drove knowing I was to tried.

Once I got home I went to bed at 6:30. I can never really sleep away from home. I love going to my sil’s but I feel like it takes weeks to catch up on my sleep afterwards. Of course it would help if we didn’t stay up late catching up while baking cupcakes, pulling hair through highlighting caps and other stuff like that.

Anyway the niece had a great little party. Her favorite thing was her new trike. She rode it till she had to take a nap. It’s hard to believe she’s 3 today.

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Friday that is. Thank God too. I am so ready for the weekend. Little bit (the one I am babysitting) hasn’t been easy this week. She has been teething and also started crawling and discovered my Christmas tree today. She was easily distracted from it tho. It takes me back to both my kids first Christmas’s. Ds wasn’t crawling yet but dd was. Ds would get pissy when she went after the tree.  

The kids and I are going to stay the night with my sil tomorrow night. My niece turns 3 Sunday. She’s having a Dora party and she’s very excited. We got her some pj’s and Dora slippers.

I felt like I needed the bad mommy award this morning. Dd’s Santa letter was due at school today. I got it Monday and set it aside to do before today. The week got away from me and I forgot to do it and send it back. Her teacher called this morning to ask about it. She offered to let dd tell her want she wanted to say so I said that was fine. Really I am sad I didn’t get to write it with her. Oh the mommy guilt sucks!

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We left my house at 8:25 am and got back to my house at 9:00 pm. That was the longest we have shopped. I have 4 things left and I am so DONE! 🙂

My mil and I went to a tea party today for our Sunday school class. Everyone brought a tea cup to exchange. We got ours yesterday at Hobby Lobby and they were the hit of the party. The one I got is very pretty.

We went and seen the puppies today. They have their eyes open now. So cute. One of the little girls are very vocal. Still haven’t decided which little girl I want tho.

I am going to finish the laundry and get ready for bed. I am pooped.

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