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It’s been many many years since I have sat down and wrote a blog post.

Lots of things have changed. After losing my Grandmother in 2007 I was bad off. The more I thought I had control the less life seemed to go my way. 2010 seemed to be the worst. My migraine’s were out of control, my life was not peaceful and I wasn’t the mom or wife I needed to be. Everytime I turned around there was more drama coming my way.  Finally I talked to my headache dr. and she thought seeing a Psychologists could help work through some things I had going on with my life. So I started seeing a lady and I was starting to see somethings going on around me were so unhealthly for me but OMG my kids were seeing all of this crap too.

I finally had to make a choice of who and what I wanted in our lifes. The drama was the first to go… only problem here was that was my mother and my step dad. I had to decide how I would do this and when. I wrote a letter to them and left it on the counter after we did Christmas with them. The letter stated that I loved them but I could no longer enable them. By driving them places b/c they were drinking, getting calls in the middle of the night b/c one of them was drinking and driving and crashed into a tree, and so on. I was sick and tried of being their parent. I have 2 kids and they are who I need to worry about and do for.

So almost 2 years later I haven’t heard a word from my mother or step dad. They chose drinking! It broke my heart a little… being a child around them I knew I wasn’t high on the list of what’s important to them. It killed me to know not even my kids have a place higher than drinking. I’m not sure what would happen if they did decide to come back after 2 years.

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proud… i think

something happened last Friday afternoon with my step dad. Long story short he blew up over something so small that I haven’t been able to get over it. I don’t understand how a 48 year old man can blow up on a 12 year old and then turn around and blow up at me over something. I always feel as though I walk on eggshells with him and for a matter of fact my mom also. My normal reaction would have been to call and kiss @ss… well that ain’t going happen this time. I am going to keep myself from being an @ss kisser. Why do I always have to be the “grown up” with them? For once can’t I be the kid with them?! Hell the last 20 years I have been the grown one but not this time.

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I seem to be getting better. Still having headaches every day just not as bad. I got my lab results back and my vit. D is super low, so I get to take a pill for that now. My cholesterol is a bit high, so are my triglycerides… oops!

I am getting sad that school is coming so fast. I’m not ready yet. 14 more days.

The kids and I went to the pool today. Trying to start living better, I swam with them the whole time we were there. When the weathers not so darn hot and humid I am going to start walking again. My mil and I had started walking 2 miles before the heat came. I just wish I would stop craving Rolos already.

I also need to sell 3 female Beagle puppies before I go insane. They are the cutest things ever but us having 9 dogs they need homes fast. When they are gone we will still have 6 dogs, yes I said 6 dogs, no I am not crazy (yet). 😉 I must run and make some flyer’s.

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my thoughts

The more things I hear about Jamie Lynn Spears the more I have wanted to say this. I think it comes from me being a young mother also. Why can she not be left alone? Yes she’s 17, I was 18.

Yes she’s a role model, but aren’t we all? I for one have a younger step sister, a younger half sister, and many young female cousins who watched how I did things. Does that mean they followed in my footsteps? No, because their parents talked to them about life.

I’m not dissing Jamie Lynn for something that happens to young girls everyday. Yes I know many of them aren’t ready to raise a baby but, you know there are many older women who have babies that aren’t ready either. I for one didn’t plan to become a mom at 18 but it happened. Do I regret that it happened… NO!!! I’m betting she doesn’t either. How can you when you look at the beautiful baby you created.

I just wanted to say it’s time to more on and get over it already! So anyway I just needed to vent. Feel free to vent too.

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I know I seem really happy that school is a day away from being over B U T it also makes me sad. Sad because it’s hitting me like a ton of bricks that next school year I will be the mother of a Jr. high schooler. What happened? It seems I blinked. Where did my sweet little boy go? And where did the smart mouthed tween come from? I don’t remember putting that order in. How can he be turning 12 in 29 days? This last year has gone by so fast. I truly feel I missed lots of it. I just have to try to remember these feelings when the mouth comes to visit… the “your ruining my life”, “I never get to do anything”, or how could I forget “you must hate me”. He has grown a lot but there’s still so much fun left. 😉

 

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Now dd is running a fever with a headache. She went to the dr. today and she’s out of school for the rest of the week. This is how ds started his sickness. I am ready for the sickness to be gone from my house. I can’t remember if I told you but I had strep last week. The only person that hasn’t been sick is dh.

I am still trying to figure out this computer. Hang with me I will get pictures here soon (I hope)! Dh has burned some cd’s but other than that we haven’t done anything else exciting yet.

We had some really nasty weather here last night. Nights like that make me wish we had put a basement in the house when we built.

So anyway I hear Without a Trace calling me. Night!

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Santa has come and gone. He brought dd a broken toy so now her momma has to drive an hour away to exchange it. He also left momma with many boxes to get rid of and while burning them she got burned.  

Even after all of that we had a wonderful Christmas. The kids got way to much but love it all. Dd got lots of Hannah Montana and Bratz stuff. Ds got lots of camo stuff. He got the Nike’s he’s been eye balling forever.

We finally came up with a name for the new puppy. Dh brought home a 7 month old chocolate lab named Doc, that is sleeping in ds’s room. Why yes that makes 3 house dogs… one beagle, one mini wiener, and one HUGE lab.

Well I am trying to get things back in order around the house. Hope you all have/had a wonderful Christmas.

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