It’s been many many years since I have sat down and wrote a blog post.
Lots of things have changed. After losing my Grandmother in 2007 I was bad off. The more I thought I had control the less life seemed to go my way. 2010 seemed to be the worst. My migraine’s were out of control, my life was not peaceful and I wasn’t the mom or wife I needed to be. Everytime I turned around there was more drama coming my way. Finally I talked to my headache dr. and she thought seeing a Psychologists could help work through some things I had going on with my life. So I started seeing a lady and I was starting to see somethings going on around me were so unhealthly for me but OMG my kids were seeing all of this crap too.
I finally had to make a choice of who and what I wanted in our lifes. The drama was the first to go… only problem here was that was my mother and my step dad. I had to decide how I would do this and when. I wrote a letter to them and left it on the counter after we did Christmas with them. The letter stated that I loved them but I could no longer enable them. By driving them places b/c they were drinking, getting calls in the middle of the night b/c one of them was drinking and driving and crashed into a tree, and so on. I was sick and tried of being their parent. I have 2 kids and they are who I need to worry about and do for.
So almost 2 years later I haven’t heard a word from my mother or step dad. They chose drinking! It broke my heart a little… being a child around them I knew I wasn’t high on the list of what’s important to them. It killed me to know not even my kids have a place higher than drinking. I’m not sure what would happen if they did decide to come back after 2 years.
