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It’s been many many years since I have sat down and wrote a blog post.

Lots of things have changed. After losing my Grandmother in 2007 I was bad off. The more I thought I had control the less life seemed to go my way. 2010 seemed to be the worst. My migraine’s were out of control, my life was not peaceful and I wasn’t the mom or wife I needed to be. Everytime I turned around there was more drama coming my way.  Finally I talked to my headache dr. and she thought seeing a Psychologists could help work through some things I had going on with my life. So I started seeing a lady and I was starting to see somethings going on around me were so unhealthly for me but OMG my kids were seeing all of this crap too.

I finally had to make a choice of who and what I wanted in our lifes. The drama was the first to go… only problem here was that was my mother and my step dad. I had to decide how I would do this and when. I wrote a letter to them and left it on the counter after we did Christmas with them. The letter stated that I loved them but I could no longer enable them. By driving them places b/c they were drinking, getting calls in the middle of the night b/c one of them was drinking and driving and crashed into a tree, and so on. I was sick and tried of being their parent. I have 2 kids and they are who I need to worry about and do for.

So almost 2 years later I haven’t heard a word from my mother or step dad. They chose drinking! It broke my heart a little… being a child around them I knew I wasn’t high on the list of what’s important to them. It killed me to know not even my kids have a place higher than drinking. I’m not sure what would happen if they did decide to come back after 2 years.

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proud… i think

something happened last Friday afternoon with my step dad. Long story short he blew up over something so small that I haven’t been able to get over it. I don’t understand how a 48 year old man can blow up on a 12 year old and then turn around and blow up at me over something. I always feel as though I walk on eggshells with him and for a matter of fact my mom also. My normal reaction would have been to call and kiss @ss… well that ain’t going happen this time. I am going to keep myself from being an @ss kisser. Why do I always have to be the “grown up” with them? For once can’t I be the kid with them?! Hell the last 20 years I have been the grown one but not this time.

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my thoughts

The more things I hear about Jamie Lynn Spears the more I have wanted to say this. I think it comes from me being a young mother also. Why can she not be left alone? Yes she’s 17, I was 18.

Yes she’s a role model, but aren’t we all? I for one have a younger step sister, a younger half sister, and many young female cousins who watched how I did things. Does that mean they followed in my footsteps? No, because their parents talked to them about life.

I’m not dissing Jamie Lynn for something that happens to young girls everyday. Yes I know many of them aren’t ready to raise a baby but, you know there are many older women who have babies that aren’t ready either. I for one didn’t plan to become a mom at 18 but it happened. Do I regret that it happened… NO!!! I’m betting she doesn’t either. How can you when you look at the beautiful baby you created.

I just wanted to say it’s time to more on and get over it already! So anyway I just needed to vent. Feel free to vent too.

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I can’t believe 12 years ago your daddy and I were about to become parents. You took your time coming into the world but man has the time gone by fast. You were one of the best babies I have ever been around. Never crying, waking only once at night from the beginning. It seems you are getting ready to pay us back for that. 😉 I know you are growing up and going to test the waters but remember we only want the best for you. So keep your head held high and know we are proud of you. Oh and no matter what you will always be my little boy! Love you!!

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meanest momma around

or so ds thinks. I have had it up to HERE with the nitpicking. When he is bored he picks at his sister till I hear her scream!!! So today I decided when I hear her scream he gets to do a chore. So far he’s pushed mowed the dogs part of the backyard. He’s walked to get the mail. Think it stopped after that… NO! He’s now mowing the rest of the backyard. Once the front dries out from dumping water from the little pool he will get that too. So if that makes me mean then so be it. 😉 Just wondering how long the chores will go on?!

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pooped out

We had a blast at the pool today. It even got hot enough that I got wet a few times. The kids should sleep good tonight lol. They swam for 5 hours and then we went to my mom’s and ate. We have been going non stop today. Gotta run and get dd out of the tub.

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Dear Son,

I know you think I was born yesterday. This morning when I got up to wake you, you tell me it’s Memorial Day and so there is no school today. Ok son whatever you think, now get your butt up and get ready for school. Yes I know there are only 3 more days left and you really aren’t doing anything BUT when you have missed too many days being sick and a few pretending to be sick you must go till they stop counting days against you. Sorry, sucks to be you!!!

Love,

Mom 🙂

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